The magic of the firsts...

There’s really something about seeing your child’s first---whether it be the first word, the first tooth, the first step or whatever firsts he or she can do…and so for this, I've contemplated on resigning work---giving up my career and be a SAHM. But for so many reasons, I opted to keep my job and hold on to my career…and yeah, this early I've learned to deal with the guilt and nagging feeling of leaving my daughter in the care of a nanny each time I go to work…But nonetheless, there’s still this certain sadness of knowing that I wont be the first to witness her firsts…and I've always thought that milestones are just exciting when you’re the first to witness it…but I thought wrong…as Bianca has had milestone that I wasn’t the first to witness, and I was just as excited, as happy and as proud as I’d have been if I were the first to see it… the magic of the firsts never emasculates---whether or not am the first to see it :)