What matters most

We're barely on our 2nd week from moving in on our own and im beat...I never realized that it can be this tiring

Maybe that ability to relax comes with more time or stability. Or maybe it's a way to assure that you're on your toes. Either way, I love our home...I just suppose that I'm still not entirely comfortable being the Queen. Someday, I'll write about pulling in every single known direction that comes with handling and managing your own home and having a little teeny baby, but not tonight.

I'm so tired I can hardly see straight. I dont know how much longer i could juggle work and home responsibilities. Its good thing that this is my last week at work and come january we'll have ate salve to help out ate krisel with the chores at home and take care of the little one while im at work

The "home + work" load really took me by surprise...since our househelp is young she doesnt know how to cook yet so at night when i get home, i still need to cook dinner and i also prepare breakfast and lunch before going to sleep( and thats because i go to work early) sigh ...it can really get frustrating sometimes...and im really just too tired now to fully enjoy our new home and bianca and hubs...but then again, no matter how tired I am ,each night as i rock Bianca to sleep, I couldnt help but be overwhelmed with so much love and gratitude...I feel so blessed having my baby and my husband. and time and again i realized i shouldnt be complaining for our life is unfolding so beautifully, i guess i couldnt really ask for more...tonight, i shall remember to hug hubs for the wonderful life we have together.

happy holidays friends. i owe bloghops and tags pa, but once we have ate salve on board, i'll visit everybody's page na. pramis =)

Happy 6th month Birthday Baby Bianca

Happy 6th month Birthday Baby Bianca

Wow, darling you are a real grown up and still mommy hasn’t gotten enough of anything of you. At night, I’d still look at you in awe, taken aback by how much you’d grown, has it been already been 6 months? The memory of the first time I held you in my arms and the first time I saw you are still vivid in my mind…you were so tiny, Oh how you fit so perfectly in just a crook of mommy’s arm, and now, you’ve more than doubled your weight =). It’s amazing how fast you’ve grown.

Amidst everything that’s been going on, I’ve noticed how attached you’ve become to Lola B. and this makes me happy, you know how much I love Lola right? And aside from your dada and me, your Lola’s about the only one I wouldn’t mind sharing your love with =)…Mostly because your Lola has earned this love, for she was the one who was there to guide Mommy during my two-month leave, Lola was there for support and help, and she does this so silently…never crossing any boundaries, never too aggressive, subtly, that’s how she does it and lastly, Lola B believes that I too can be a mom, leaving enough space so I can be one…and I really just love her so…I hope that as you grow older, you’ll come to love Lola more and more, the same way I do…
oh and baby, when mommy needs to go to work at night, Lola sleeps beside you and takes care of you through the night, bait ni Lola no? And were just so lucky to have her

On you naman =)

Teething - I noticed last Friday(December 7) that your first tooth is about to come out, now I understand your need not only to chew on but more on to wrestle with your teether (and yeah you drool a lot too ahehehe, I first suspected that you were teething already some 3 weeks ago cause you were gnawing on your teether ever so badly but I read that on the average most babies have their first tooth on the 7th to 12th month, but I should have known that you are an advanced kid)
Sitting – yes, you can sit unsupported for a few second now, and babe am proud of yah
Babbling – mommy’s a little jealous, cause your babbled “da” first (November 17) and no “ma” yet…= (but of course I did enjoy listening to your babbling, keep it coming babe, I love hearing ah goos and squeals of delight from you

Last Saturday, December 8, we packed our things and moved back to QC…while we are all excited that we will finally be on our own… (READ: Daddy, Mommy and Baby Bianca ONLY) we are a little sad that we are leaving Lola, Lolo, Tita Joy, cousin Yang and cousin Toyang in Laguna…I know you’d miss Lola terribly…and Lolo would no longer be able to take you for morning walks…we’d also miss tita joys pupog kisses…and cousins (pinupunit na yerong) version of “ah moochi moochi moochi…ah woochi woochi wah”…and yeah we’ll even miss Ate Lita’s caring…sigh…mommy is all getting teary eyed thinking about all the people at HOME and yes I would miss them so…but we need to move cause we are a family now and we need to start building our own nest.

On the lighter side naman , you’ve also had your 2nd IPD shot last Saturday during your well baby check up, and hey, you only gained 0.2KG in three weeks…previously you were gaining about a KG every 3 weeks but now, you’ve only gained about a quarter of a kilo…and you know why??? Because you are kulit and likot already. But this is good…I mean, I like you active and full of life, really…You’ve also graduated from using new born formula…Dr. Rabanal already recommended stage 2 milk supplement…how cool is that? You know I actually had a silly smile on my face as your dad and I checked out at the counter after buying this stage 2 supplement. Ahehehe =)

You’ve also attended your first Christmas party, (sponsored by dada’s company) the kids were asked to wear super hero costumes and you came in as Super Bianca, and yes you were as charming as ever, wowing each of your father’s officemate. You simply are adorable darling 

Babe, remember that mommy loves you so much, so very much darling….so very much…and I vowed to myself that I will give you the very best that I can…you know I think of you all the time, I think of you when I’m at work, I think of you when I’m at home, I think of you at night and I think of you every morning, always in all ways babe, I love you, if life is a bit simpler and you’d find me next to you everyday, every hour of your life…

The Best(est) Christmas...

Yeah, Christmas is just around the corner and while I'd love to blog about the Christmas shopping and Christmas parties, I'd really just like to acknowledge the fact that hubs and I are really looking forward to this holiday season, all because of Bianca. Yes, Christmases and all the other holidays will never be the same again, we can look forward to a happier and merrier Christmas, espcially this year, as this is going to be Bianca's first Christmas.AND having Bianca alone is enough to convince me, all over again how good God is, and how blessed I am.

The latest pix of my uber sa cuteness baby Bianca

One Sunday afternoon,me taking pix and hubs making Bianca smile

On a sidenote: Let me just add that my sister just had her laser eye surgery, something we've always wanted for her =) . COngrats sis and enjoy your new 20/20 vision. Oh by the way, would like to remind those eyes..."little eyes be careful what you see, what you see, little eyes be careful what you see, what you see, for the Lord up above is looking down =). Happy holidays =)

Blogging Personality

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading... You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose. Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily. But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

What is your Greatest Fear as a Mom?

Tag carnival by nice

Thanks nice for the tag...shucks i might get too emotional answering this =)

My Answer:
Yeah, like most moms, i fear too that i wouldn't be my daughters number 1...so like nice, i too, am taking extra effort in caring for my child after work and on weekends and every chance i got...no matter how tired i am...im not saying though that im just doing this to be her number 1...no, i just really love spending time with her...and if this would lead to her making me the number 1 in her life then i guess, time spent really paid off...

On a larger scale, being the human that I am and given all my imperfections, I fear that I(might) fall short on being a mom and not be able to bring out the best in my daughter...

There! good question nice =)

Tag - a thon part 2--Two things

Tag # 3

Two Things
Got this Two Things Meme from Joey. :)

1. Two names I go by: Sheila and May
2. Two things I am wearing right now: long sleeves pajama top and pajama
3. Two things I want (or have) in a relationship: Love and trust
4. Two things I like to do: spend time with Bianca and mom, christmas shopping :)
5. Two things I want very badly in this moment: a new job, new dining and sala set?
6. Two things I did last night: bought Bianca a toy and played with Bianca's new toy
7. Two things I ate today: Mcdo's chicken mc nuggets and fries =)
8. Two persons I last spoke to: my mom and my sister
9. Two things I am doing tomorrow: more christmas shopping and go to work (ugh!)
10. Two favorite days of the week: Saturday and Sunday
11. Two favorite holidays: Christmas and New year
12. Two favorite beverages: orange juice and iced tea 13. Two things about me that you may not have known: I'm a math wiz (wink wink wink)....
14. Two jobs that I have had in my life: Industrial ENgineer and Workforce officer
15. Two movies I would watch over and over: conspiracy theory and pretty woman
16. Two places I have lived: Laguna and QC( bothin th phils though so dunno if this would count...haven't lived anywheree outside the Phils yet =))
17. Two of my favorite food: chocolates and ice cream
18. Two places I would rather be right now: in Laguna with my mom, daughter, sister and nieces and in Canada with my sister =)

And here is another question: What are the 5 gifts you would buy for Yourself this Christmas, if you had unlimited income?
And here are my answers.
1. A house and lot! (plus all the appliances and furnitures)
2. A new car
3. An educational plan for my daughter
4. all the toys and gears and baby stuffs for my little one
5. a rolex

Tag - a thon part 2-- I'm a spongebob :)

Tag # 2 I got this tag from a Norm. Thank you friend for this interesting tag.

Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble?
A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities of well known and modern cartoon characters. The information that was gathered was made into this test.
Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results.
Do not cheat by looking at the end of the e-mail before you are done.
Then ask your Friends to answer it. (Make sure to Highlight your answers)

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
.a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
.b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
.c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
.d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
.e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)
2. What is your favorite type of music?
.a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
.b) Alternative (1 pt.)
.c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
.d) Country (5 pts.)
.e) Pop (3 pts.)
3. What type of movies= do you prefer?
.a) Comedy (2 pts.)
.b) Horror (1 pt.)
.c) Musical (3 pts.)
.d) Romance (4 pts.)
.e) Documentary (5 pts.)
4.. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
.a) Waiter (4 pts.)
.b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
.c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
.e) Cashier (1 pt)
5 . What do you do with your spare time?
.a) Exercise (5 pts.)
.b) Read (4 pts.)
.c) Watch television (2 pts.)
.d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
.e) Sleep (3 pts.)
6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
.a) Yellow (1 pt.)
.b) White (5 pts.)
.c) Sky Blue (3 pts.)
.d) Dark Blue (2 pts.)
.e) Red (4 pts.)
7. What do you prefer to eat?
.a) Snow (3 pts.)
.b) Pizza (2 pts.)
.c) Sushi (1 pt.)
.d) Pasta (4 pts.)
.e) Salad (5 pts.)
8 What is your favorite holiday?
.a) Halloween (1 pt.)
.b) Christmas (3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
.d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
.e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)
9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
.a) Paris (4 pts)
.b) Spain (5 pts)
.c) Las Vegas (1 pt)
.d) Hawaii (4 pts)
.e) Hollywood (3 pts)
10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
.a) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
.b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
.c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
.d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
.e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)



Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for! Put your character in the subject line and forward to your friends and back to the person that sent this to you.

Very interesting to see 'who' your friends are!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield :

You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:

You are fun, you are very cool and popular. You always know what's i n and you are never are out of style You are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:

You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants: - this is me (") You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:

You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points) You are Dexter:

You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes.Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!
Now don't spoil it! Have some Fun!!

Tag - a thon part 2

Tag # 1 : Birth Month Tag

Thank you Norm for this tag. (Im so way behind =( .
I need to highlight the traits that tells about me. I am May....
I'll just add a simple twist since our (hubs, mine and bianca's daughter falls on censecutive month, i'll include na their traits and for Bianca naman traits I'd want her to have =)

1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
3. Pick your month of birth.
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.
6. Let the person who tagged you know when you've done it!

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:Hubs
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:me
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:Bianca
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

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Baby # 2

I've been contemplating on what to get hubs on xmas day, my choices are:

1.Lazy boy
2.PSP
3.Another perfume?(i gave him a perfume on his birthday)
4.Another watch?(we got the his and hers watch last xmas)

Cant really decide. so last saturday, i asked hubs what he wanted, he simply answered...A BABY BOY...

susme, di pa nga nawawala yung stretch marks ko noh!

The magic of the firsts...

There’s really something about seeing your child’s first---whether it be the first word, the first tooth, the first step or whatever firsts he or she can do…and so for this, I've contemplated on resigning work---giving up my career and be a SAHM. But for so many reasons, I opted to keep my job and hold on to my career…and yeah, this early I've learned to deal with the guilt and nagging feeling of leaving my daughter in the care of a nanny each time I go to work…But nonetheless, there’s still this certain sadness of knowing that I wont be the first to witness her firsts…and I've always thought that milestones are just exciting when you’re the first to witness it…but I thought wrong…as Bianca has had milestone that I wasn’t the first to witness, and I was just as excited, as happy and as proud as I’d have been if I were the first to see it… the magic of the firsts never emasculates---whether or not am the first to see it :)

What matters most

We're barely on our 2nd week from moving in on our own and im beat...I never realized that it can be this tiring

Maybe that ability to relax comes with more time or stability. Or maybe it's a way to assure that you're on your toes. Either way, I love our home...I just suppose that I'm still not entirely comfortable being the Queen. Someday, I'll write about pulling in every single known direction that comes with handling and managing your own home and having a little teeny baby, but not tonight.

I'm so tired I can hardly see straight. I dont know how much longer i could juggle work and home responsibilities. Its good thing that this is my last week at work and come january we'll have ate salve to help out ate krisel with the chores at home and take care of the little one while im at work

The "home + work" load really took me by surprise...since our househelp is young she doesnt know how to cook yet so at night when i get home, i still need to cook dinner and i also prepare breakfast and lunch before going to sleep( and thats because i go to work early) sigh ...it can really get frustrating sometimes...and im really just too tired now to fully enjoy our new home and bianca and hubs...but then again, no matter how tired I am ,each night as i rock Bianca to sleep, I couldnt help but be overwhelmed with so much love and gratitude...I feel so blessed having my baby and my husband. and time and again i realized i shouldnt be complaining for our life is unfolding so beautifully, i guess i couldnt really ask for more...tonight, i shall remember to hug hubs for the wonderful life we have together.

happy holidays friends. i owe bloghops and tags pa, but once we have ate salve on board, i'll visit everybody's page na. pramis =)

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just wanted to say that Bianca has learned a new trick...she can jump...and she is so kulit...lately she's also been babbling a lot of ah goos...and hehehehe's but thats about it :D

more on the jumping though, last night when my mom held Bianca in her armpit, she'd jump a dozen times, making hubs and I burst into laughter, and then she'd jump again, and then we'll laugh again and then she'd jump again...this went on for about an hour or so...needless to say we were all so tired by the end of the day with Bianca's kakulitan. that I was 2 hours late at work...(so typical of me, hubs would say!)

makes me think though if we should get Bianca a jumperoo...(and i know naman that hubs wouldnt agree cause we just got her a walker cum exer saucer and it was quite expensive plus we'd also be getting Bianca a high chair next month)twas just a thought :D

The wifey in me

Oh, I just remember...I've been thinking a lot on what to cook this weekend--hubs and I are moving in our new house ---yippeeeeeeeee---finally, on our own...

Im thinking of making arroz caldo for breakfast
beef and mushroom in oyster sauce for lunch...
no idea what to prepare for snack and dinner ...

hubs been kidding me naman that we'll have take outs and deliveries every night...well, not if i can help it, at least on our first month, i intend naman to cook for him...even with the limited recipe that i know, im sure naman we wouldnt be starve or we wouldnt resort to pangat(pangatlong init) unless of course there are left overs, kaya nga am encouraging hubs to eat a lot para walang left overs :D

For Bianca naman, she'll have solids na next month and as advised by pedia, she'll only eat mashed whatever on her first month---so there---one less prob---so now i only have to think of hubs---and for this reason we hired a maid who knows how to cook na---my alibi--pang back up in case i cant cook---but hubs knows better :D

Tag - a - thon

The Brand Tag
Tagged by Erika
This is fun :D

1) What’s the brand of your wristwatch? Gucci

2) What’s the brand of your bracelet? brandless ( i got from my alahera lang ahehehe)

3) What’s the brand of your cell phone? Nokia

4) What’s the brand of your computer?Dell

5) What’s the brand of your bags? RL,Tommy and dooney and bourke

6) What’s the brand of your undies? triumph

7) What’s the brand of your flip-flops? Havaianas and old navy

8)What’s the brand of your shoes? my 1 and 1/2 years old rockport screaming i resign !!!

9) What’s the brand of your wallet? Girbaud

10) What’s the brand of your shirts? Kamiseta

11) What’s the brand of your TV? Sony and JVC

12) What’s the brand of your cars? Toyota

13) What’s the brand of your mp3 player? Don’t have one.

14) What’s the brand of your make up? Maybelline

15) What’s the brand of your shampoo and conditioner? finesse

16) What’s the brand of your jeans? armani

17) What’s the brand of your laundry soap? Tide(i guess) and perla for Bianca (this one am sure cause i personally bought it

18) What’s the brand of your lotion? crab tree and evelyns goat milk lotion

19) What’s the brand of your toothpaste? Colgate

20) What’s the brand of your ballpen? im using a monggol pencil


Now im tagging joey, arlene, emz, jesse and norm


Tagged by Joey

1. are you good at hiding your feelings? am i? i guess so...

2. how can we tell that you're already irritated?when i am silent na...

3. how do you treat the person that obviously doesn't like you? dedma :D

4. what usually ruins your mood? interrupted sleep

5. who do you see everyday that you wish you just wouldn't at all? I couldnt think of anybody right

6. when was the last time that you had a good cry? The day hubs and I fought about the email sent by ****

7. how often do you shop for clothes? I dont do shopping on a routinary basis, i just buy stuff if I see something nice and its affordable.

8. who's your long-time crush? None?weird ba?

9. someone you just had a crush on? I guess hubs... i just keeping falling for him e...(awww sweet)

10 . do you have something that you wish you just don't? My bulging puson! :D (this answer i snagged from Joey, cause i, too, wish that I dont have this aheheh)

11. do you sometimes crave for something that isn't there? yeah

12 . do you wish to live in a faraway land where nobody knows you? No, I like the thought that my mom or family is just around the corner

13. have you kissed a total stranger?No.

14. what do you want to do at this moment? go home and sleep next to Bianca

15 . the worst feeling?Daughters first cold/fever. Waiting for something....

16. how about the best? cuddling my little one...seeeing and making her smile

17. ever given your number to someone you dislike? yeah--workmates! our mobile phones are published in the frontdesk...

18. what will you say to the one reading this right now? I hope I'm not boring you :)

19. what/who do you need right now? A new job.

20 . happy with your life? Yes,'nuff said


Now im tagging Erika, arlene, emz, jesse and norm

Wrong move...

Can I just say, that I am hating my job now! I really think that moving from the scheduling team to the forecasting team was an awful move...really hate it! i swear...

Mark also informed me that the position in * has already been filled out...Shouldnt there be a feedback system for all companies--- I mean candidates shouldnt be left hanging or guessing if the position they are applying for is closed na or sana at the very least, update the ads naman...sigh...ranting mode lang

I've stopped updating the staff plan and I havent been reviewing the accounts performance...This is bad

But then again, it could have been worse...

How lucky can you get?

Sigh, Joy is finally having her eye laser surgery...FINALLY, we've been wanting this surgery for her for the longest time but its just so costly to have it done, good thing talaga, there's a promo going on at this hospital...she'll only be paying half the usual rate...oh thank God :D . The initial cost quoted was 32K excluding lasik screening and medicines...so in all, I think she will shell out 40K for this surgery, not bad noh, considering naman na 800+ na yung grado ng isang mata pa lang nya...oh i hope all goes well.

Bianca naman, on the other hand, had her 2nd dose of the 5 in 1 vaccine last Saturday. Everything went well too...She now weighs 8.6 Kg, her pedia commented that she gaining weight too fast, but no need to put her pa naman on diet :D

Hubs and I naman are quite busy shopping for our new house :D, it still looks bare but we both agree that despite its emptiness, para pa rin kmeng SM---we've got it all :D

Life Insurance

When my husband and I found out that I was pregnant. Stability and security was brought up in one of our discussions. We knew that the life we'd be bringing on would depend solely on us, at least for the next couple of years.

We’d like to guarantee a solid financial future for our only child Bianca; We’d like to take care of Bianca even after our own death, thus we thought of getting a Life insurance

But getting life insurance should need not mean, going broke due to huge premiums, reduce premiums should be one of the major considerations in getting a life insurance. One should also be able to see the insurance plans pros and cons .

Keeping in mind these factors, we started searching online and chanced upon this http://www.advantagetermlife.com it out yourself as this may answer all you life insurance needs.

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The 5th month(my dalagita's 5th month bday)

For Bianca's traditional (and thus usual) monthly birthday celebration, we had pansit and cake. (told you its the usual). Its a little more special this month for a couple of reasons:

1. The 11th of the month fell on a weekend, making preparations easier.
   
2. Instead of the usual heart shaped cake we'd gotten her the previous months, we got the dog shaped cake...which proves to be a better choice cause it tasted so much better :D, the fillings are gooey and more chocolatey :D (the icing on the heart shaped cake actually tastes like merengue so I was really getting tired of getting this one).
   
3. This may be the last month that we are to celebrate it in Laguna, cause we are moving back to QC in the next couple of weeks.
   
4. Bianca wore a tube dress...though I personally do not want dear daughter wearing sexy clothes...(kse i just feel that its not fitting for an infant)...we just had to use the dress kse sayang, this was actually a gift and i hafta admit that it is nice :D
   
5. Bianca's ears are pierced. so yes, she is dalagita already.
   

Bianca is really just a happy happy baby :D and hubs and I couldnt ask for more. I have been keeping track of her developments and milestone and am happy to see that she's almost always ahead in achieving these milestones (at least based on what to expect the first year :D)

My niece,Sofia, turned 8

My niece,Sofia turned 8 last october 26, sofia opted not to have the usual birthday party at home, instead she celebrated na lang in school. Her folks had to bring the typical pansit and zest o and other stuffs in the school during the kids break and her classmates feasted on it. :D Sofia seemed happy naman with this kind of celebration.

With Sofia turning 8, i couldnt help but think of how time flies by so quickly...I mean Sofia is 8... our little baby is 8 now...not so baby anymore and definitely not so little :D...

Sofia being the first grandchild (thus the first niece) on our side was an instant favorite, I'd even remember running home (literally) from work just to play with her and I'd even take time off from work to be with her...she was indeed a little darling...:D

In my mind, Sofia would always be the little girl who brings so much joy and happiness. I(or we) have always been and will be always be proud of her...and I (or we) would always love her...I just hope she gets to realize this... On her birthday, I wrote her a letter:

Sofia darling,

Wow happy birthday little sofia. You are 8 years old now. I am so proud of you. :D

Just some things I want you to remember:

1. Stay a good girl. ( i used the word stay so she gets to realize that she is a good girl na, kse naman lately she's been scolded for doing so many little naughty things and I'm afraid she might get the idea that she is bad---but she isn't...though she really gets jealous on the attention that Bianca is getting not only from me but also from lola...sigh) Also, always follow your mom and dad and lolo and lola
   
2. Stay nice to your brother and sister. (you are toyangs idol so always be good and nice )
   
3. Study harder. --you need to keep your grades up and stay on the number 1 position in your class. (Sofia is really smart and I (or we) are really hoping she gets an academic scholarship and use her full potential.)
   
4. lastly, always remember that you will always be our favorite pamangkin.
   
   

Often, Sofia would ask if she is still loved...and always, I'd truthfully answer, yes I love you...i hope she gets to realize that...and hope she gets to understand that I may now have my own daughter but that doesnt mean I love her less, moreso, it doesnt mean that the good times and memories we shared are forgotten...of course not, for in my heart, little sofia would always be very special.

Pay you to blog

The sound of the Christmas jingles being sung by my nephews and nieces woke me up last Sunday; their happy voices ringing in my ear…Christmas songs, this early? I took a quick peak at the calendar---November 11---wow, exactly 44 days before Christmas. Oh sure, Christmas is a great time as this is the time we remember the birthday of Jesus, but it also means preparing tons of gifts for family and friends which spells out---additional expenses.

It’s a good thing I chanced upon and joined blogvertise (and got approved real fast too). Blogverstise is an amazing way to generate extra income---while doing something you really want-blog. Plus its all so simple too, no system requirements whatsoever…Blogging has never been this great with blogverstise…

You too can join,and get paid to blog.

Happy Endings...

Last week started out rather bleakly, little did i know that the weekend holds something really wonderful...

Rundown of events

Monday - mom and I went to Pasay to vote and support a cuz who is running for brgy captain post, ---she lost...

Tuesday - I was late for my 7AM breakfast meeting, i got in the office at 830AM. (so typical of me ahehehehe)...After the meeting, I hurriedly returned to my workstation to finish my '08 AOP, only to find out that my personal folder was deleted...all files were saved there (ang galing noh?) we were informed by IT that it will take anout a week or 2 to restore all the files...sigh. Then later in the afternoon, I was scheduled for a 6PM interview, I got there at 545PM, I waited til 730PM only to find out that the interviewer wasnt coming in...such luck...then went to QC stayed there for the night cause I have a scheduled meeting at 5AM tom...

Wednesday- I got up at 2AM to prepare for my 5AM meeting, I logged in at 330AM,I intentionally went in earlier to prepare, only the meeting was cancelled. Last night was the first night i didnt sleep with mah moochi sigh

Thursday - Its a legal holiday but I am at work...I need to up (again) my 08 forecast...its due wed next week. oh, I am working night shift today and tom and next week too...

Friday - finally completed 08 forecast and staff plan for all lines of business...hubs picked me up in alabang at 9AM. bfast at mcdo and then were off to binan to pick up Bianca...we are to spend the weekend at QC...we had lunch at nanays (Bianca's great grand mother) twas the first time nanay saw Bianca, good thing naman Bianca was being sociable and kept on smiling at nanay...ahehehe

Saturday - Went to Medical City for Bianca's 2nd shot of rotavirus... :D, since this was administered orally, we opted na to have Bianca's ears pierced :D sigh, my little dalagita(I'd post her pix on my next post)...she's now wearing this heart shaped sterilized earring...and since Dra is so nice, she gave us discount :D. Then we went to Robinsons Galleria, twas the first time Bianca ever went to the mall...Tita Jhing bought her stroller (baptismal gift) :D

Sunday - Hubs and I took Bianca out for a walk, we visited the house where we'd be staying once we moved back in QC... The house looks empty. hubs and I made a list of the things that we'll initially need to make us comfy...wow, we are going to have a new home, both hubs and I are so excited ...we painted Bianca's cabinet pink...while the cabinets in the kitchen are painted green(green was our motiff when we got married)...as we looked at each room, we'd smile at each other with joy, knowing that our new home, will be filled with so much love.

Sigh. Life is good. :D

Photographs and memories

Digging into some of our old pics...

I so love this pix,taken at villa escudero, sigh, reminds me so much of my pre pregnancy bod--

We celebrated hubs bday in Baguio---hubs, the king of my world :)

Honeymoon pix, (boracay)...wala ako kse im the one taking the pix e, kinda funny cause most of our honeymoon pix are solo's...understandably naman cause it was just the two us :)

Bianca first shot at the nursery (taken at The Medical City)

Photo and layout by the most caring anaesthesologist in the world --Dr. Berdan...pix taken right after birth (The Medical City)

Mother and Daughter --we celebrated Bianca's 3rd month bday yey :) hubs dropped by lang in Laguna with ninang meann in tow

A family pix, taken in a resto in QC, we celebrated MILs bday, didnt wanna join na sana cause the place was noisy and the crowd was kinda rowdy(plus it was really late na---way past Bianca's bedtime), syempre naman hubs wouldnt agree so we joined them, sadly, the next day Bianca had fever tsk tsk tsk...

And oh, i intentionally posted hubs and mine pix first, kse naman i look so different na because I am still carrying some maternal fats :(

My happy baby

A healthy, happy baby is a mothers pride and joy...no doubt...am just so happy Bianca's thriving...despite the occasional coughs and colds :)

Last October 17, dad was scheduled for a check up with his gastroenterologist. The doctor normally comes in at around 3PM...which means, i needed to report to work early so i can go home early and take care of Bianca since mom will be coming along with dad, my katamaran however got the better of me--so i just called in sick and stayed at home the whole day...

i've been missing Bianca a lot cause we havent had the (quality)time to really bond...I took advantage of this leave and took care of Bianca the whole day

and she (can) now...

--sit for a few sec unsupported

--gargles a lot

--smile spontaneously

--(i think) she recognizes me coz she follows me around (with her eyes)

and i was raving over this one talaga

--she squeals in delight na...as in she can laugh...i was playing peek-a-boo with her in front of the mirror and then she laughed...we did it over and over again ad she was laughing out loudly....ahehehe...talk about reaping rewards...by far, this is one of the sweetest :)

Happiness.

Happymommi's wishlist

Sigh…so happy naman that we can save, Avent bottles here in Manila are sssssssoooooo expensive. So I’m sending off this list to Ate in Canada and she can buy them there. Then she can just dump all these in the balikbayan box that she’ll be sending my folks….yey 

Avent isis breast pump on the go set – 1 set
Infant feeding set – 1 set or (newborn starter kit)
Bottle trainer kit – 1 pc
Magic trainer pack 7 oz twin pack – 1 set
Avent magic cup 9 oz twin pack – 2sets
Avent 3 pack 11 oz – 1 set
Pacifier – 6-18 months
Plus
Extra teats

Thanks thanks thanks

Happiness. Ahehehe

Ranting (and loving)

I have this nasty habit of checking hubs email every now and then…sometimes I’d even log in the messenger using his account most of the time this is fine, but I realized that this too has its setback…Case in point, ‘twas early this week when I opened hubs email and saw this message from an ex girlfriend…I was hysterical---and boy was I mad…sure the content (just a reply from a forwarded email) wasn’t really something that I should be bothered but nonetheless, I was---Being the frantic wife that I am, I called up hubs in the office demanded to know if there was something going on…of course there was none---I wasn’t convince and went on with my “I-hate-you-and-I-am-never-going-back-to quezon-city-with-you” litany. Hubs just kept quiet…That night, hubs got home early…not even bothering to eat dinner, he lay down in bed next to me, hugged me and held my hand…that was enough assurance for me…I woke up the next day feeling happy but a little uneasy…When I got in the office I immediately checked on hubs email…what I saw really infuriated me…I saw 2 emails from the ex girlfriend

Email # 1 ---forwarded pictures taken in the office (I think 3 plus one close up picture taken in the bedroom, ex gf wearing pajama…)

Email # 2 ---(unedited )

Hello,

You know im upset today, i hate my colleagues here, there are all two faced people and all of them thinks that they are the best, they keep on saying bad things about another person but they are not that good as well. I dont know I just want to express my anger, I cant release it to anyone here since it concerns them. Hehe what to do just need to adapt and sacrifice, i just wish that things will be better next time. Im just tired and fed up, i need a break but i cannot have my vacation yet, too frustrating. Anyway hope your OK now and everything is good for you.
XXXX

I was so mad, how dare this girl email unsolicited pictures of herself to an ex boyfriend who is married (and happily at that---and will remain to be happy if only PATHETIC ex girlfriends would know and recognize boundaries). ~~walang daga sa net girl so we’d never have a use for these pictures!!! ~~it could have been a different story if you were sharing photos with scenic views or anything interesting, kaya lang wala e

How dare you pour your out heart to seem vulnerable and beseech sympathy and attention! How dare you declare unabashedly that “Arvi special ka sakin”

The nerve di ba?


~~~~~~~~~


Since ‘twas too early to bug hubs with these stuffs I waited for a couple of hours before calling him…and we talked…he doesn’t know what her problem is, he does not intend to reply to any of her messages and lastly and most importantly : SHE DOESN’T MEAN ANYTHING TO HIM…to quote: ‘xxxx is my past, you are my present and my future…’enough said…coming from my husband, this meant a lot cause he’s not really the type of person who would articulate his feelings, so this was a major plus, moreso, hubs and I used this avenue to reaffirm how much we mean to each other…that no matter what happens we will uphold this marriage and hold on to our vows to love each in good times and in bad…and I was once again reminded that hubs is Gods best gift to me…


I love you honey!


Happiness.

My abcd ....

Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random habits/facts about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!
Seven facts about me:

1. My pre pregnancy weight is no more than 99 lbs. On my 3rd trimester I was gaining 10 lbs a month. I weighed 150 lbs on my 9th month :)

2. I was in labor for 21 hours

3. When I was pregnant, I’d bugged hubs (every weekend) to scrub my feet cause I couldn’t reach them.

4. I had no bleeding whatsoever in my entire pregnancy but was advised to bed rest for 10 days due to contractions during the first trimester.

5. I puked in the recovery room after giving birth.

6. I wore 36D brassier when I was breastfeeding Bianca.

7. After giving birth, I now wear size 7 shoes (my feet is ½ bigger compared to my pre pregnant size )


MY ABCD...

A - Age: 30

B - Band Listening To Right Now: None.

C - Career: Workforce Officer. More of a mom, less (or none) of a wife

D - Drink or Smoke: Neither.

E - Easiest Friends To Talk To: Marianne, Jet, Auwie, Let

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Gummy Bears

H - Have a Boyfriend: Uh huh.(hubs)

I - In love: Bianca, family and hubs

J- Junk Food You Like: fries

K - Kids: Arvinne Bianca

L - Longest Ride Ever: SG

N - Names For Your Future Kids:

Girl – Arvinne Beatriz (my moms name is beatriz)
Boy – Alfred Zachary (my dads name is alfredo)

O - One Wish You Have Now: to get that directorial post in…

P - Phobias: rodents…

Q - Favorite Quote: Jeremiah 29: 11-13 (English-NIV)

11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope hope and a future.
12
Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
13
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

R - Reasons To Smile: Bianca,

S - Sleeping Hours: 8PM- 4AM (with a few bangons in between for Bianca’s night feeding)

T - Time You Woke Up: 4AM

U - Unknown Fact About You: I hardly watch television

V - Vegetable You Hate: ALL?i dont eat veggies eh

W - Worst Habit: kids stuff shopping…( I don’t know why, but I always feel as if Bianca doesn’t have enough of (material) everything.))

X - X-rays You’ve Had: Chest

Y - Yummy Foods: shrimps, crabs and carbonara

Z - Zodiac Sign: Taurus

I'm tagging back Erika,Mec and Let plus anybody who wants to answer this tag.

Awards...

Dont you just love awards...
my very first from Erika :)
Don't just choose your friends making this cliquish and 'just groupies'...Make NEW friends by choosing random visitors!!!.

Bianca is 4 months old...

After 39 weeks, 4 days of pregnancy, 21 hours of labor and 3 big pushes...Bianca has arrived...
June 6 –
Pre natal check up, am on my 39th week …and baby, you sure are getting bigger (and heavier too) everyday…I have been doing a lot of walking the last 2 weeks for my dilation to progress…but I’m only 1 (yes, ONE) cm dilated….all that walking and I am still 1 CM dilated !!! Mommy admits she is getting INIP…and girl its getting harder to sleep night after night…

June 9 -

Everything is in place, the baby bags are on top of the stairs ready to be picked up anytime, all the forms that needs to be filled up are in the bags as well (I even prepared the bridal pen that hubs is going to use in filling up the forms), I have my admission slip in my wallet…I even read and reviewed the signs and symptoms that I should watch out for when ITS TIME…so I guess I AM READY… Went to SM North Healthway to check if there’s any progress in my dilation…but NO I AM STILL 1 CM dilated…’comeon I’ve walked around tri noma and SM north edsa for more than an hour and I AM STILL 1 CM dilated, you’ve gotta be kidding me…I am 39 weeks and 3 days preg…the residing OB at health way was too concerned that I haven’t given birth at 39 weeks, she explained about the fetus not being “nourished” well because of the placentas age blah blah blah---she talks about mortality I was SCARED…BIG TIME…she prescribed buscupan and other meds to induce my labor but no way am I gonna take those meds--- I am Dr. Aguilar’s patient and I wont take any meds without her clearance…so there after the Drs visit, I walked, and walked again til my feet ached…til I can walk no more…

June 10 –
Woke up at 4AM goodness gracious, my dear Bianca seems as if she wants to try out for the next Karate kid---I swear her signature kicks are hurting---it felt funny being poked from inside---but I tell you it hurts…
~~~

I was expecting movements from dear Bianca after lunch…but there was none…I AM SCARED…why isn’t my baby moving like the way she usually does??? At 4PM, hubs took me to Medical City… I was asked to proceed to the pre labor room. There the baby was checked…heartbeat is fine… The nurses got in touch with Dr. Aguilar, I was only 1 cm dilated, I can actually still go home if I wanted to, but I chose not to…I’d rather be here and have my baby monitored….

6PM

I was already in the labor room, and I’ve had my first shot of Buscupan… this isn’t so bad… I mean the contractions and all…I have been having them every 5 minutes or so… but they don’t last long…each contraction was only about 30 sec long…its fine the pain is tolerable…

10 PM

Still no progress, the nurses and resident doctor has been checking on me every hour, am about 1.5 or 2 cm dilated…no progress and pain is still very tolerable…


12Midnight

Dr. Aguilar checked on me, geez, I am 1.5 – 2 cm dilated, such progress…ulk…I’ve had like 2 more shots of Buscupan, I have dextrose and I was already checked for any allergy…I have been staring at the heartbeat monitor for almost 6 hours…both mine and Bianca’s heartbeat is fine so I guess we’re ok…but I have to admit I am getting a little inip and the contractions are getting a little more painful now, but its tolerable…Doctor said ill probly give birth by 6PM tom ---the latest…(which meant I still have 18 hours of labor to endure….gosh…)
1AM
Ok, dilation is now 3 cm…yey 7 cm more to go…

2AM
3 cm dilated

3AM
3cm dilated—but whoa the labor pains are sooooooo intense…I need to get my first shot of epidural…heaven must have heard my cries and sent Dr. Berdan, my anesthesiologist, by 3:30AM I was already begging him for my epidural, he said it might be too soon cause I was only 3 CM dilated, we should wait a little longer, ideally daw kse, epidurals are given if you are at least 4 or 5 cm dilated, otherwise the dilation might not progress…but I was in pain…and since Dr. Berdan is such an angel, by 3:35 AM I was wheeled to the delivery room for my first shot of epidural---now I’ve heard several horror stories about how anesthesiologist sometimes mess out and make mistakes, thus leaving the patient paralyzed and all---its such a scary thought, I felt a shiver down my spine, perhaps because I was so scared and also because it was sooo cold in the delivery room. As I close my eyes for my first shot, I asked God to keep me safe…and I then I thought of hubs, I thought of my Mom and my dad, I thought of my sisters and nieces and brothers, I thought of all the people whom I love…I knew that they too were praying for me and Bianca and I knew then that everything will be alright, Bianca and I will be fine…
3:45 AM

I was wheeled back to the labor room. I could no longer feel the labor pains…epidural is the best invention of mankind ever…I have to research who invented them and send I’ll be sure to write them a thank you note after giving birth,,,

5:30AM

This only goes to show how little I know about medical science, after 2 hours, the effect of the epidural has already subsided and I was again yelling in pain…I was given my 2nd shot of anesthesia, the 2nd anesthesia they gave me had a little side effect…it felt itchy…and the effect only lasted for an hour... oh by the way I am still only 3 cm dilated…

6:30AM

Dr. Aguilar has been checking in on me, I am still 3cm dilated…they shifted back to the 1st anesthesia…yey no more itching…I get these shots every hour…
7AM

Sigh…I am still 3cm I dilated, I was allowed to take light breakfast…a slice of goldilocks marble cake and water…I couldn’t finish it anyway…
11am
3cm dilated…still no progress…been talking to Bianca
“Baby let’s get going…dada’s waiting for us”
12noon:
Yahoo…I’m 5cm dilated

1PM
6cm dilated

1:30PM
1 was 7 – 8 cm dilated…now were excited…talk about progress…

2:30PM
I was almost 9 or 10 cm dilated—station zero---I honestly didn’t know which station is the best but the nurses were happy so I guess, station zero is ok---the baby is ready…

3PM
The nurses were asking if we have a camera—yes we do—it’s with hubs--- The nurse reminded me not to push…yet

I was 10CM dilated and baby is in station zero---we are so ready---

I was finally wheeled into the delivery room, aside from Dr. Aguilar and Sr. Berdan, there were probably 4 or 5 more people helping out, after shaving and positioning my legs, I had my last shot of epidural---Dr Berdan reminded me to push hard whether or not I was feeling the contractions, the epidurals are supposedly so strong that I’d hardly feel the contractions…I kept that in mind…last minute instructions from Dr. Aguilar: count to 10 when you push… that too, I kept in my mind…as Dr. Aguilar calmly instructed me push, I did, I pushed hard, and I pushed with all my might, after 3 or 4 pushes, my baby’s is out…it’s done…she’s finally arrive…

Bianca cried while she was being cleaned…I silently hushed her…the nurse brought her to me and I couldn’t help but cry…my baby is beautiful…she’s perfect…the nurse placed her on my tummy so I can breast feed her, but after a quick peek at mommy, my little darling drifted off to sleep…life doesn’t get any better than this…

The bag hag in me…

Last Sunday, amidst my sama ng loob to hubs, I met up with a friend in circle c to check out some PCs…she finally decided on getting an “unbranded” PC to replace her dell laptop… since I was really hurting over an argument hubs and I had in the morning, I wanted to pass time to take my mind off the issue at hand. My friend and I checked out a stall that sells B-A-G-S…we just came to see the bags...that’s all…we wont be buying any…you see …I don’t have much money, another bag is not in my budget and oh, Bianca is due her 2nd shot of rota virus in two weeks time so, no new bags for me…nah ah…no…nada… I mean hubs just got me an RL bag last Christmas… besides…I’d rather collect Avent bottles and training cups than add another RL bag to my collection …Really, I don’t want a new bag…except probably for that Tommy Hilfiger Blue bag in the corner…it looks nice, and I don’t have a bag in that shape yet and at the price quoted by Marge, I felt it was a steal…I realized bro just gave me extra money so I actually have enough money to spare for a new bag, I haven’t bought myself anything in the last couple of months and I felt that I deserve a little treat…ok enough reasoning…I don’t need a new bag. But, I want one…Cant wait to have the photo uploaded…ahehehe

So in the end…the bag hag in me won …

But it is indeed a nice bag, right???

The mothers' mom

‘twas nice having lunch with ate Bubot (hubs cousin) — well, she’s always been a fave cousin in law---she’s warm and funny and I’ve always enjoy the light conversation we’d normally have during “get-togethers”

Beyond our normal exchanged of words regarding etel and other call centers we’ve touched on some personal topics as well, and I realized…

Men in general are AHs.

Women (mothers in particular) are expected to be more than mothers nowadays. Gone are the days when men single-handedly shoulder all household expenses. Gone are days when men were chivalrous enough to put up and shoulder personal expenses of their spouses… (hubs and I even go Dutch when we dine out---sigh---sad yeah, but its true)

I know about a hundred married women my age and only 4 (Joyce, Mel, Rachel and Mec) of them are SAHM, 2 (Joyce and Mel) of them wanted to get a job but couldn’t cause no one would look after their children.

Lastly,

I, once again, realized how lucky I am that my mom volunteered to take care of my daughter--- FULL TIME---I know that not all moms would be willing to give up their time and their life to take care of their grandchildren---but my mom did---she re arranged her life to accommodate me and Bianca and I am just thankful…beyond words for I couldn’t find anybody more suited than her to take care of Bianca…I know I would never find someone who would love Bianca as much as I would…and for that here’s a simple message for my mom:

I love you mom, I will forever be grateful for the love you have given me, and for extending that love to my daughter---I love you so much--you're the best---the greatest.

Thumb sucking...

Yikes I’d probably be chastised again for being distressed over **nothing**…but hey, I’m a first time and I admit that I tend to exaggerate and resort to hysteria at times…

Oh, its really not the thumb sucking per se that’s bothering me…it’s the bruised on her finger…so huge it looks as if her nail would just fall off…now wouldn’t that scare you too??? More so, my heart aches each time I see or hear daughter crying furiously because she wants to suck on her thumb…not because she is a brat as some would assume but rather because, thumb sucking soothes and calms her…sigh, I feel helpless…and I wish there’s something more that mommy can do…for the meantime you’ll just have to keep wearing those mittens again~~ don’t worry you look adorable wearing them…

Hang in there darling…mommy loves you…!!!

An excerpt of what I researched from the inet re: thumb sucking …Read on

A thumb-sucking child usually places the thumb in the mouth above the tongue, pressing forward against the upper front teeth or gums and backward against the lower front teeth or gums. A child may develop a callus on the thumb if he or she sucks often and very hard. · Some children suck their fingers instead of their thumbs. They may have found their fingers more easily than their thumbs when they first started sucking. · Some children finger a piece of cloth, pull on their ears, or twist their hair while sucking. Thumb-sucking in children younger than 4 is not usually a problem behavior...

Mother's Day Quotes

~~Mothers are everyday miracle workers!

~~“Loving a child doesn’t mean giving in to all his whims; to love him is to bring out the best in him, to teach him to love what is difficult.” – Nadia Boulanger

~~“It’s as if, in the mother’s eyes, her smile, her stroking touch, the child first reads the message: ‘You are there!’” – Adrienne Rich

~~“I love my mother for all the times she said absolutely nothing…” – Erma Bombeck “If you’ve never been hated by your child, you’ve never been a parent.” – Bette Davis

~~“Sometimes we can’t communicate well, for no particular reason except that we’re mother and daughter and so different…” – Anne Lamott

~~“Whether our relationship is strained or easy, hostile or amiable, we need [our mother] if only in memory…to conjugate our history, validate our femaleness, and guide our way.” – Victoria Secunda

~~“God knows that a mother needs fortitude and courage and tolerance and flexibility and patience and firmness and nearly every other brave aspect of the human soul.” – Phyliss McGinley

~~“[My mother] had handed down respect for the possibilities – and the will to grasp them.” – Alice Walker

Random thoughts…

I got off the office around 545PM, I can just stay in BMP and wait for joy; for sure I wouldn’t wait too long cause she’s already on her way. There I saw joy; I surreptitiously hid behind the car so she wouldn’t see me, I flung my arm around her and she shriek with fright ahehehe…gotcha…Joy always brings out the kid in me

As I got ready for bed my mind drifted off to what transpired the whole day…

Random thoughts…

On sisters…

I have always treasured my relationship with my sister(s)-- Sisters ~ play, eat, sleep, bathe, study and grow together. Sisters share so much that they become an integral part of each other—they understand every mood, every hope, and every dream. Sisters cry and laugh together, without the fear of being judged. Sisters can be at their worst or at their weakest and not worry about anything.

Sisterhood offers love, security and acceptance ~ that no matter what happens, despite the distance, they will be there.

And it is because of my sisters that I want Bianca to have a sister too, to experience sisterhood in its entirety, to experience the joys of sharing with a sister…and being a sister…

…the same way I did.

My little girls’ future…

When Bianca turns 20, ill be 50, such a scary thought…I’m not sure what lies ahead, not sure if all the decisions I’ll make are correct but one things for sure, every decision I make for you will be made out of love.

Heaven help me…

xoxo:

…stay cute little darling…mommy loves you the most...

On Mom...

Shucks still haven’t gotten that mattress …sigh

B-I-A-N-C-A 101

Milk – s26 lactose free (before she was just using the regular s26 but she had rashes (and was colicky too)so her pedia shifted her to s26-lactose free—and so far so good no rashes—not colicky at all.

Diaper – we use EQ dry. Before we were using prokids but I find it too pricey for a diaper---we experimented on other brands and EQ was the cheapest brand that doesn’t cause diaper rash.

Crib – Bianca has a wooden crib (I got this from SM), she uses this for day time sleep and co sleeps with us at night. Sayang lang the mattress cause we didn’t use it: mainit daw sabi ni dada

Crib mobile – chicco –I love it (courtesy of tita ninang joy)! Bianca loves it—up to now she still stares at it in wonder. ---colorful kse and the shapes of the hanging toys vary.

Clothes (pambahay)– lahat courtesy of lola and titas. I don’t buy clothes kse sayang ang bilis mapag iwan e. Except the tie sides we bought some before Bianca was born pero she just used it for a month or two, we still have tie sides at home that we weren’t able to use. Napag liitan lang.sayang.sa susunod na baby na lang :)

Clothes on porma days – mostly gifts.

Shampoo/Body wash – were using cetaphil super mild, no rashes but the thing is its fragrance free, so hindi masyado mabango si baby plus it doesn’t create soap suds so you tend to use a lot. I tried Johnson and Johnson’s baby(body) wash it smells good and its cheaper compared to cetaphil but it wasn’t mild enough and Bianca had rashes on her face so we shifted back to cetaphil, then I tried Nivea, smells good and not as pricey as cetaphil and no rashes si baby so nivea na ako yipee

Nail clipper- I have a safety first nail clipper I’d say it’s good, well made and durable but I lost it. I bought sesame beginnings nail clipper, its so cheap less than 50Php but after 3 uses --- it broke. I now have safety first nail clipper with the rubber handle. Hope I don’t lose it again

Sterilizer – I use chicco electric sterilizer courtesy of the 4 four titas (Jhing, angel, joy and lissa) its nice and compact but consumes a lot of electricity (*sniff*sniff*sniff) . I also bought a big casserole so in case of power outage we can still sterilize the bottles

Nasal aspirator – we got a free aspirator upon discharge at the medical city, but I cant use it cause the tip is so long it might hurt Bianca’s nose. we bought the chicco aspirator but still cant use it, the tip looks so pointy . I saw safety firsts bulb aspirator –looks good…I intend to get one maybe next month, I just got the chicco last month and hubs will surely react if I get another one.

Thermometer – we have 2 (1.) a digital thermometer that we got from The Medical City when we were discharge and (2.) the traditional mercury filled thermometer…contemplating whether I should get an ear thermometer or not, fussy kse ang baby when they’re sick so im thinking of getting one.

Foot rattle – can’t resist buying this. So cute. If it’s hot and Bianca’s not wearing it, I hung it in her crib mobile and she amusingly stares at it. So worth the money.

Baby bag – I have 3 , 2 from enfant and 1 from kinder care—I like the enfant bag kaya lang maliit it can only hold up to a max of 6 bottles. Yung kinder care naman is big kaya lang punit agad yung likod (waste of money tsk tsk tsk)!

Blankets – I like the cotton blankets, flannel blakets kse are mainit so she doesn’t use it very often pag umuulan lang and malamig. She still has a lot of unused blankets sa bahay kse naman a friend gave me a dozen plus the ones I bought and gifts nung binyag

Shoes – enfant –courtesy of Jerry—but she hardly use them – pag punta lang naman sya pedia lumalabas e

Socks – she has plenty of socks--- more than a dozen barely used all of them.

Mittens – used for a month. I think she has a dozen or so pairs…used daily during the first month of her life but after that we kept it na.

Bottles - before Bianca was born I bought the PUR infant set from Chicco, but Bianca is colic-ky so we started buying Avent bottles even if it’s a bit pricey so far so good nabawasan talaga yung colic ni Bianca If its not for colic I would have bought ordinary bottles lang for Bianca, kse she can shift from breast to bottle without any hitch---she uses Avent-non Avent-wide neck and regular shaped bottles without any fuss. J Good thing tita lissa is already in Canada, I can just email her the list of Avent products that I like and she can buy them there its so much cheaper…

Pajamas and jogging pants – barely used these. I even bought a baby gap pajama but she just wore it once or twice then naliitan na. tsk tsk tsk.

T-shirts/long sleeves – hardly used the t-shirts, the long sleeves we just kept unused.

Bibs/washer – so useful, ill probably buy more as my baby drools a lot ---and she’s not even teething yet---she’d probably use a dozen per day as soon as she starts teething.--ahehehe

Breast feeding and the bible

Since I’ve stopped breastfeeding, I’d normally spend a couple of minutes in the mall after work ~ wala lang just passing time, but after reading this~~ I knew its time for relactation~~ Read on…

Breast feeding and the bible
Psalm 8:2

Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings hast thou ordained strength because of thine enemies, that thou mightest still the enemy and the avenger.

Genesis 49:25
Even by the God of thy father, who shall help thee; and by the Almighty, who shall bless thee with blessings of heaven above, blessings of the deep that lieth under, blessings of the breasts, and of the womb:
I Samuel 1:21-23

When the man Elkanah went up with all his family to offer the annual sacrifice to the Lord and to fulfill his vow, Hannah did not go. She said to her husband, "After the boy is weaned, I will take him and present him before the Lord, and he will live there always.""Do what seems best to you," Elkanah her husband told her. "Stay here until you have weaned him; only may the Lord make good his word." So the woman stayed at home and nursed her son until she had weaned him.

Joel 2:15-16

Blow the trumpet in Zion, declare a holy fast, call a sacred assembly.Gather the people, consecrate the assembly; bring together the elders, gather the children, those nursing at the breast. Let the bridegroom leave his room and the bride her chamber.

Psalms 22:9
Yet you brought me out of the womb; you made me trust in you even at my mother's breast.
1 Thessalonians 2:7

But we proved to be gentle among you, as a nursing mother tenderly cares for her own children.
1 Peter 2:1-3

~ After having nursed a newborn, verse two has so much more meaning to me. Ellen had a fervent desire to nurse, and she nursed frequently!
~ Wherefore laying aside all malice, and all guile, and hypocrisies, and envies, all evil speakings, As newborn babes, desire the sincere milk of the word, that ye may grow thereby: If so be ye have tasted that the Lord is gracious.
Isaiah 66:10-13
"Rejoice with Jerusalem and be glad for her, all you who love her; rejoice greatly with her, all you who mourn over her. For you will nurse and be satisfied at her comforting breasts; you will drink deeply and delight in her overflowing abundance." For this is what the LORD says: "I will extend peace to her like a river, and the wealth of nations like a flooding stream; you will nurse and be carried on her arm and dandled on her knees. As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem."
Isaiah 60:15,16

"Although you have been forsaken and hated, with no one traveling through, I will make you the everlasting pride and the joy of all generations. You will drink the milk of nations and be nursed at royal breasts. Then you will know that I, the LORD, am your Savior, your Redeemer, the Mighty One of Jacob.
Isaiah 49:15, 16
15 Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee. 16 Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me.
Exodus 2:1-10

The Story of Baby Moses

~ God wonderfully spared Moses' life, and He made a way for Moses' mother to breastfeed him. They were able to share that special time together before Moses had to go live with Pharaoh's daughter. ~
Now a man of the house of Levi married a Levite woman, and she became pregnant and gave birth to a son. When she saw that he was a fine child, she hid him for three months. But when she could hide him no longer, she got a papyrus basket for him and coated it with tar and pitch. Then she placed the child in it and put it among the reeds along the bank of the Nile. His sister stood at a distance to see what would happen to him. Then Pharaoh's daughter went down to the Nile to bathe, and her attendants were walking along the river bank. She saw the basket among the reeds and sent her slave girl to get it. She opened it and saw the baby. He was crying, and she felt sorry for him. "This is one of the Hebrew babies," she said. Then his sister asked Pharaoh's daughter, "Shall I go and get one of the Hebrew women to nurse the baby for you?" "Yes, go," she answered. And the girl went and got the baby's mother. Pharaoh's daughter said to her, "Take this baby and nurse him for me, and I will pay you." So the woman took the baby and nursed him. When the child grew older, she took him to Pharaoh's daughter and he became her son. She named him Moses, saying, "I drew him out of the water."
Luke 11:27, 28

~ It's kind of interesting to note that apparently breastfeeding was not a topic about which one needed to keep quiet. The lady in this passage raised her voice in the crowd! ~
While Jesus was saying these things, one of the women in the crowd raised her voice and said to Him, "Blessed is the womb that bore You and the breasts at which You nursed." But He said, "On the contrary, blessed are those who hear the word of God and observe it."

Rolling over...

Last Wednesday my mom happily announced that Bianca can roll over.Happy because of Bianca’s new skill but a little sad that mommy wasn’t the first one to see you roll over—but that’s fine—really – I just wish you’d also show mommy how strong those bones are and roll over---I bet you're so cute doing those little exercises –ahehehe --- cant wait for the weekend so mommy can spend more time with you--im sure you'd show mommy your cool moves ---ahehehe---

Its Saturday---yey---i'll finally get to spend Quality time with my bebe---

I was having breakfast and Bianca in her crib suddenly just rolled over---mommy is ssssooooo proud of you darling ---I was so happy I feel like I’d burst into tears --- Bianca can roll over :)

This is just the first of the many milestones that you’ll achieve---I will always be there to cheer on you--- to guide you and just be with you --- you are amazing darling --- I cant help but stare at you in wonder---not just at what you can do, but who you are. There is no one like you. No one. And mommy loves you …